Murderdolls

I couldnt keep completely quiet ;)

Sadly no dates here in Sweden or even Scandinavia. Their full European tour is as full as an shot of Jäger near the band!!! 7 out of 45 countries can not be considered a full European tour. Unless they are talking about the state of the people that's going to be on tour, they might be full of just about anything! ;P
Then again they just might be doing the tour full (full=drunk in Swedish).

Could go on about this for ages but bottom line is they are sadly not coming here.

Winter wonderland!

Feels like my life is just one long waiting period for something, or everything rather. Right now nothing is happening but soon... So much that is coming up within a few weeks, months and so on.
First thing is me going back home for Christmas. So longing to go home!!

Then we got the work situation. Got ideas, things to discuss but it's all on hold until after new years. Will just see how it goes. I know what I want. Planing to wish for a bulletproof west for Christmas as they are quite expensive... or so I have heard ;)

How come my two last entries have been about Murderdolls!? I have such a rich life!! ;)

On a completely other topic I LOVE winter! And I LOVE how it looks outside now. Snow already in November, and loads of it! Cold weather! It's just perfect for me!

Hope to have word about my op soon. Want to start planing things.

Murderdolls - Nowhere

Murderdolls new video just out. Nowhere happens to be my fave song from their new album so I'm happy!!

Murderdolls!

On a completely different subject...

My number one favorit band is back! It looked a bit dark at one point but I'm glad to say the Wedesday and Joey got their shit together and did the only sane thing possible and brought Murderdolls back.

I have had their new album, "Women and Children Last" on repeat in my ears since it came out and I'm far from disappointed. The album just rocks!!!



Keeping my fingers crossed that they will be bring their tour in this direction during next year...

Babbling...

So been awfully quiet for a long time again but I got an explanation for that. Been feeling really crap and have not felt up to posting anything in here at all.

I dont know if everyone know, I have told a few but far from all, but I suffer from bipolar disorder. I have my good times and my bad times. Then I got my really really bad times and during those I kind of disappear. I am choosing to tell this now cos them maybe some will understand what is going on and what happens. Some will of course not get it at all but that not really my problem. If you dont want to understand then dont.

Most people understand or atleast try to, they ask and I explain best I can. What I hate the most though is the ones that say things like "snap out of it" or "but today is another day" and so on. I'm sorry but if it was that easy, believe me, I would not be feeling like I do at times.
It is impossible to be positive at all time for me. So snap out of it yourself!

Sometimes I think I should have gone into acting cos I surely deserve an Oscar for the role I've been playing most of my life. I have managed to fool everyone including myself!!

Am ranting here I know but am kind of high on some painkillers that I got for my knee that I managed to hurt a while ago.

My plan as it looks right now is to either stay at my crappy job (hoping to change that soon) or get another one. Do my operation feb/march next year and then start planing for a move north.
Thats how it looks at the moment...

Slow Sunday

Today I'm feeling great!! Had a few bad days lately but today is good! The sky is grey and I have slept bad but I dont care at the moment.

There are two thing that I'm working on right now (I will tell eventually). One of those things I've done all I can do with and it has now been confirmed. I just have to wait for a few months. The other thing, well I got the ball rolling so to speak and am keeping my fingers crossed. A wonderful friend is also helping me out on this one so we will see what happens. But as I said I am positive and I am feeling great. It finally feels like things are going my way.
Am being very secretive I know but I just dont want the world to know about everything that I do. Some things are very private and some I just dont want to tell before everything is 100%.

In about two weeks I'm going back home for a few days. Me and Sandra are doing the road trip thing and I'm so happy she wants me along for the ride but there and back. So much more fun than going alone or a bus or a train. For the first time in I think 9 years I will also get to spend my birthday with my parents. Looking forward to that!

Then just two weeks after that me and my cousin are off to Spain!! So got quite a few things to look forward to at the moment. So close some a bit further away but all will happen eventually.

I'm a pirate! Aleast I wish I was....

I am truly crap at this! LoL!

Had a wonderful weekend. When changed the opening hours a bit at work so that I have saturdays and sundays off during the summer instead. I dont mind at all even though it worked fine with the other days. It's only for a short period.
So this friday I got a txt from Miriam that they finally got the boat in the water and all was working so she asked if I wanted to join them on saturday. Stupid question! I love boats! I would rather have a boat than a summer cabin!
So I went to their boat club in the morning and we left just before 11. Took the boat to Taxinge Castle for one of northern europes largest cookie/pastries buffets.
Then we dropped anchor in a small bay and just laid there in the sun, swimming a bit and talking. It was me, Miriam, Seth, Monica and Rizzo.
On the way home we decided to go "under the bridges", you go thru the center of Stockholm via boat. So beautiful!!!

Today I have just been enjoying the slightly cooler weather. Finally! Now I'm just looking forward to that rain they keep promising is coming. Poot mother nature is in desperate need of some water!!!!

The past week at work was a very good one. Feels like everything is finally falling into place at work. Had lunch together with Jessica a few times when we went shopping. Always have fun during the work days! This is one of the better work places I have had thru out the years.
Tomorrow we been talking about heading to Melek after work for some quality time. Will see what happens...

Only working monday as my cousin arrives tuesday with Marco and Maja. Also my little Nomak is getting sterilized on tuesday, poor little thing. So got a very busy week ahead :)

Bloody heatwave!!

Got something to blame for the lack of updates this time. The bloody heat! Am literally melting here! Me and my cats have been laying knocked out all day long. Now it's midnight and still way to hot to be healthy. I mean if I was somewhere with a pool and shade and could stay outside in a completely different way AND didnt have to work then it would be different. But not now.
Am so glad that we got AC at work. Just wish I had it at home too but I swear then I would be sick instead.

Speaking of heat me and my cousin is going to Spain for 8 days in september and I am really looking forward to that. Just 8 days of relaxing and taking it easy. No drama, no work no nothing. Great company, good food, sun and swimming. Cant wait!
But first I have almost 3 days to spend with my cousin and her kids when they come down to visit me next week. Going to be a blast.

Hoping to get home for a few days in august too.

Well since I have sundays and mondays off I will now watch a movie and hope that it cools down a bit before I try to go to bed.

Midsummer

I have not had any time updating this blogg lately. Feels like all I've been doing is working and sleeping and between that either getting to or going home from work. Having 4 days off feel a lot longer and I'm trying to enjoy it best I can as it looks like this will be about the only vacation that I get this summer.
Have a 3 days of in july as my cousin and her kids are coming down but thats it.

Thinking about going back home for a few days in august, will have to see what the boss says about that.

Had a very nice and calm midsummer. Relaxed and had a great dinner, alone or with some company? Well thats for me to know and you to wonder about ;)
Dont really have any solid plans for the two remaining days but I know I'm going to take it easy.

What the hell am I doing up!?

This is one way to spend a beautiful summer day! Hope to have many of those this summer.

Must take better care of myself!

So today my body finally said stop. Been working for 16 days straight and this morning I couldn't get out of bed at all. Felt sick and my whole body just refused do obey me. This was all followed with a migraine that completely knocked me out. And it's not until now that I'm starting to feel a bit better although I will be home tomorrow as well.
I think that the injuries in my neck and back might also have been a reason for the migraine as the table I'm using right now at work is way to low. It is messing up my neck and back badly!
Always wondered why the work tables for nail techs are so damn low!? Are they made in some country where all nail techs are midgets? Or what is the deal?

Looking forward to having the whole weekend off and being able to do normal things. Have a few customers booked on sunday but thats it.
Have a meeting on saturday that might turn out to be interesting. Will have to wait and see what happens.

Sons of Anarchy and coma

Nothing ends a week better than some Sons of Anarchy...
And the chance to enjoy the handsome Tommy Flanagan... ;)




So I have as of now worked for 14 days straight! As last sunday when I had a day off I was working from home taking care of some of my wonderful older customers. But today I found out that I will have next weekend off! Two whole days of nothing well not really true as I will work sunday.
So now I'm going to go to bed and go into some coma like state and hope it will give me some rest before tomorrow...

Oh and meeting up with the girls from my old work on friday. Really looking forward to that!

Monday

Just felt that I had to write something as I've been so quiet again. But I've been to busy to write. Work all day and getting up early is still a bit hard although it's getting much better BUT I am completely dead when I get home. Managed to get some dinner and then I'm out!

But today I got to leave 30 min earlier! What a difference! *lol* Billy was nice enough to let me leave a bit earlier. Must also add that today was a really good day :)

After work my accountant came by and we finished up the last papers concerning my company, well my now sleeping company. And she had some great news for me. I get back on my taxes this year! For the first time in ... I dont even know! And it's quite a lot also!
And tomorrow I'm getting my first paycheck! Wooohooo!! Ok so it's only for about 1 weeks work but it is still pay!

Then my cousin is planing to come down again during summer for a visit and bringing her wonderful children. I love my cousin and her family! Am hoping that I will be able to go with them to Thailand next year :)

I think this is all I have time for tonight as I can hear my pillow just screaming my name right now!

Night night!!

Short but sweet...

Just a little short one as I'm dead tired!!

Really like my new job and I'm kind of in charge of the nail department in the salon and I like that. Also today I got to jump in for a bit on the tattoo side, also fun.
Am starting of this job with full force as I'm going to work 6 day weeks for at least two weeks.
Right now I'm just so out of it as I'm not that used to getting up early and my mind still dont want to go to sleep early. Although something tells me that will change soon!

Going to go hug the pillow now!

Nerves

Getting a bit nervous now... But I know it will all work out fine!
Tomorrow being Norway's independence day is a sign to me that all will work out great.

Just seen one of my favorite episodes of Sons of Anarchy and with that I'm signing out for tonight! Need some sleep...

R.I.P Ronnie James Dio.

Like my brother said... The end of an era ...

The reason

Oh and the reason I have been so inactive is of course first my trip to "Northland" and then having my cousin over for a week.
Next adventure starts on monday...

First day of summer?

What a wonderful wonderful day!! The sunny is shining and it's warm... Very warm. We are talking summer here.
So me and the cousin are getting ready and going for some shopping before we are heading to Skansen for some picnic and relaxing in the grass under the sun. Then perhaps some more shopping and dinner somewhere in the sun. So it will be a days spent outside!

Yesterday we went to the erotic convention and I have to say that place is going nowhere!. It was boring the last times I worked there and it has not gotten better, more the opposite. Only reason I actually went was cos my cousin wanted to. Something tells me this convention wont be around for much longer.

Well now I better get ready. The sun is waiting!

Fresh air and fresh thoughts...

Am in my hometown visiting and have not had that much time to be here or online at all. Now my parents are home and want to spend time with them before I head south again. Just to have my cousin follow me the next days.
More adventures planed but now it the big city!!
But I have to admit that I prefer the smaller little village anyday!!

Had such a great weekend but I guess I will have to talk more about that later.

Also got some other news but will keep quiet about them for a while longer ;)

Another thing crossed of the list...

Oh and I have decided to stop drinking alcohol completely. And no not because of some extreme hangover or because I feel I'm drinking to much. Ha ha ha me drinking to much!
I just dont see the point in it and as I almost dont drink at all as it is well then why do it at all? There are so man things that taste better anyway.
So well that my decision :)
The funny thing is how offended some people get when you say you dont drink. Not my problem though :)

Northland

So tomorrow I'm finally travelling north! Had a bit of a problem with the tickets my brother fixed as they were in his name! But the nice lady at SJ fixed it without no charge :)

Talked to my cousin and my schedule for the trip is full! There are parties, BBQ, cruising, shopping and more already planned! Think pretty much every minute is booked and I'm not even there yet! My dear brother is picking my up at the train station tomorrow.

Maybe I should pack...

Sunny anyone?

Inside, freezing, snuggled up BUT still got the sunglasses! Cant really do anything but laugh :)

One step closer to summer...

Been such amazing weather all weekend so have tried to enjoy it. In the sun, on my balcony it's been like summer. Breakfast on the balcony is a favorite :)
Maybe it is actually warm enough now for me to get the floor on the balcony painted. But I think I will wait until I get back from my trip up north.

Wonderful Amanda and her friend will take care of my cats and I must say I'm very very lucky (as are my cats) to have such a wonderful girl take care of them.

Well time for dinner now I think...

Thunderstorm!

Just had a thunderstorm pass over during the evening. No heads up about it coming. Was in the kitchen talking to a friend and suddenly there was a noise, like a light bulb that breaks and a flash outside the window, just outside. A bit like a camera flash but in midair. Before we even could being to understand what it was the thunder came. And damn!! The whole house trembled and my poor cats took off and went under the sofa in a flash! It was all right on top of us and the thunder so powerful that it set of the car alarms on several cars outside.
I love thunder and lightning! It is so powerful and gorgeous and nature really shows us how small we are. We have nothing to put up against her if she would want to off us. And I believe one day she will!!

Well now Nomak wants my attention or I will loose a toe!

Nightmares part II

Am so tired but I just dont want to go to sleep. Am scared of more nightmares.
Sounds like a bad Terror on Elm street movie I know but I just cant shake the feeling the nightmare gave me. Dont know what to do as for once I'm really tired.
Fighting this hard right now...

Nightmares

Had a bad night. First it took forever to fall asleep and then I woke up from a nightmare after just one hour. Made it almost impossible to fall asleep again. Been years since I had such a bad nightmare that affected me as much.
Had a creepy feeling for hours and it still is very uncomfortable to think about. Parts of the nightmare reminds me of one I used to have as a child.
Going to be a loooong day today. So tired...

Full moon...

Full moon coming up on wednesday and as always my head is starting to hurt... A very annoying pain that wont go away whatever I do.

They are saying the weather tomorrow is going to be wonderful so perhaps a trip to town would be in place. Still have to go and give blood. Tomorrow sounds good. Feeding the undead ;)

Rant...

Took a big decision today and also did a spontaneous thing that could have an effect on my future. Go with the flow and move in whatever direction your life leads you ... Putting myself first and doing whats best for me. It is my decision and you can support me or not your choice.
There are some people out there that think they know me and whats best for me and they over and over again try to tell me whats best for me. Well newsflash! You dont know me! Not even close!
There are two people in this world that know me very very well and that is...
Petra that I for the most part grew up with that has seen me in all kinds of situations. We have talked about everything and nothing and she understand and listen. Love her!

Then there is Sari, my soulmate in some ways and my total opposite in others. We may not always see eye to eye about things but I love her to death. And when it comes down to it I trust her with my life!

Then there are a few that are getting closer to me.
Wonderful Ronnie who I honestly can say saved my life.
Not going to sit here and mention everyone. What I wanted to get thru is that not many know my and most are not even close.
Only one person fully knows me and that is me!

Going to end this rant now. I got things to do ...

Nighttime...

Got so much done today! But still numerous things on the list to fix. Hope to sort most of it out tomorrow. Cos then next week somes filled with other stuff that needs done.

Even had time to update my other blogg this evening. Been ages since I wrote. Just never got around to doing it even though I felt several times that I needed it. But now it's done. Got a note about it some time ago from some one saying that it was very inspiring.

Cant wait to go home for a week!!

Now off to fight my insomnia!

Busy bee!

Beautiful Busy Saturday!
Realised I've not even had a chance to have some breakfast yet!
So far half of the windows are cleaned but still the other half to do and then laundry.
I'm the queen of procrastinating!

Itchy Daze - Monster (Official video)

I just love this song so much... Some that know me will understand why . Others well it's a great song, enjoy

Come over to the dark side ~ We got cookies!!

Reposting this from my old blog as it's so cute!

No blood today!

Had a lovely but way to short lunch with Linn today. Was nice to see here and talk about everything and nothing. So it was 60 intense minutes.

Also went and bought some new materials and picked up 3 new diplomas and certificates. Maybe I should go for a teacher certificate next? Who knows what will happen... One thing I know is that I'm wanted and my skills are recognized. Keep getting offers every week but I have made up my mind. Hire me or it's a no.

Also went to give some blood as they texted me earlier this week that is was time again. I however missed the fact that they close early on fridays. So sorry to you all undead out there I would make my deposit until next week. But it's worth waiting for ;)

Now I have a somewhat busy weekend infront of me but it's ok :)

Sunshine!

Off to my old work in a few, having lunch with the wonderful Linn later. Miss her and the others. Have to wait a while before seeing Amanda again though as she is still relaxing in Thailand.

Then a few other errands to get fixed while I'm in town. Maybe even a short meeting with my brother.

The weather is lovely so friday here I come!

Surprise for me!

My brother came by today. Was a complete surprise that he was in town when he called me today. But it was great to spend some time with him and talk. We tend to talk a lot when we spend time together. Had some dinner too and he stayed and entertained Tina while I was fixing her nails.
He is in town for work, giving some lessons in stage-fighting at the dance academy and was nice enough to come over when he had a few hours off.

Have finally booked ticket to go back home for a week in may and already have plans for what to do. People to meet and things to arrange. Will be a busy week but filled of fun and some great time with great people. Cant wait to see Petra and spend some time with my dear cousin! Who is also coming down to see me in the end of may. Then anything can happen! Good to know I'm the sober one ;)

I Hate You - The Bloopers

April weather!

I must have scared off spring with my rant last night as right now it is snowing outside again. Big beautiful snowflakes falling from the sky.

Having a lazy day today as I'm feeling a bit crappy.

Spring I dont like you very much right now!

Damn how I wish I had allergies instead of this hypersensitive thing! Atleast allergies you can do something about and ease. This you cant do anything about. Been sneezing like crazy all evening. I guess it's the pollen that are starting to fly around in the air. Oh the joy of spring!!

Finally got around to watching Annihilation Earth last night. What can I say... Not Lukes proudest moment. He was great as always but the rest Oh dear! Or Oh my god! Most used phrase in the entire movie! And I'm sorry but strippers dont make convincing scientist (or whatever they were supposed to be). It was not Cold & Dark bad (but not much is, that one is hard to beat) but it was not god.
Although I must say this is about the handsomest I've seen Luke! Hot! No abs and a slight, very slight tummy. Makes a girl like me happy.

Creative...

So been playing around a bit with the blog this evening and I think it look better now. I'm really glad I can do HTML coding as some of the changes I've done to the original script would be impossible to do otherwise. But hey at least I'm good at something ;)
Am not fully happy with the design yet, am looking for a background that I like... So I will be changing it further. You just have to put up with that for a while :)

I wish I could be as creative as I am with these kinds of things when it comes to writing my CV and job applications! Sadly it dont really work that way. But I'm getting there. Just so much to do and papers to fill out that I'm going insane!

A new beginning...

I decided to change my blog place and I have my cousin to thank for that. She is using this site and I found it to be much better than the site I have been using. Also I could choose the language for this site.
Still working on this place and it will probably go thru quite a few changes before I am done. But you are all welcome. Don’t be afraid to comment…

New place...And a look at the old...

For my old blog go to...
http://xdeadmemories.blogg.se